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| Things go so right then so wrong, I cant live like this. Its time for me to go. | | |
| HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS
"Where Can I Stab Myself In The Ears"
I guess I could have sent a letter from the road,
with words that always meant more than updates on the phone.
The signal's fading fast and the ink is running out.
The words look good in pen, but sound better from my mouth.
Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight.
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind
Behind your back, talking like knives
And I can hardly breathe.
Sharpen your tongue the rest of your life,
like I cannot believe anything that you say.
Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight.
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind
So you're the fire and I'm the water.
I am the balance and you are the color.
I won't forget you when we're not together.
This is the ending, here's my surrender.
So you're the fire, I am the water.
I am the balance, you are the color.
I won't forget you when we're not together.
This is the ending, here's my surrender.
Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight.
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Leave this all behind (leave this all behind)
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave Alright so theres nothing much going on right now. I'm possibly goin to Tri-State to study Civil Engineering, if that doesnt work out It'll be Mechanical Engineering. Those are my two big dreams. I just dont know which one I'll reach first. Yay I'm getting a lap top soon. Welp thats all for now.
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| Stay up all night and sleep all day. We were smart kids with too much to say and so, so sure that they were the ones missing out - they're the ones who are missing out. We were elemental. Talked down to bare essentials. Who knew we'd get so far. Our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops. They said we're wasting our lives. At least we know that if we die we lived with passion. The said we'd burn so bright that we'd burn the city and go. Play it again - our games of love and lust there's no such thing as too much. So pack our bags and let's get away - they're catching on to us. --- So anyways check out the song playing on my myspace. www.myspace.com/phonswanh | | |
| So I thought I had my mind made up about what I was going to do with my life last year... Turns out that I don't know anymore. At first I wanted to be an engineer... Civil or Mechanical either would of been fine. Now I just dont know. Over the summer I went to work down in Greenwood, IN at EXCEL equipment and supply / MIDWEST Construction. It was great working there. I had a lot of fun working on gas stations and constructing buildings, pulling wire, washing company vehicles and uh mowing the lawn. The friends I made there were cool too. Being employed by a 12 million dollar private company wasnt so bad. So yeah being an Engineer would of been a great job. Coming back to school... well I kinda didn't want to. I kinda wish I didn't come back to Wabash, sure I have a lot of friends here and I probably would of never met some people, but coming back probably wasn't my best choice. Someone was right though when they told me to stay away. I didnt listen. So now I'm typing on here. I wouldnt of made a difference if I didnt come back this year, because this year when we graduate and we walk across that stage it will be the last time I see most of you, until high school reunion... So Civil or Mechanical Engineer I dont know if I can anymore... So I thought it through a bit and decided when I turn 21 I'm going to the Police Academy in Indy. Its time for me to get back on track and pursue a career and not to worry about anything else till later in life. Easier said than done, but it will have to be done. College wow I definately need to get on track... I haven't applied yet. So... yeah after we graduate theres a certian few that I would love to run into again.
Signing out - Dennis | | |
| I feel like I would like to be somewhere else
Doing something that matters
And I admit here while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my thoughts stick together
Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted by the loss of my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
And I'm just scared, scared that I'll fail you
And sometimes I think that, that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me, I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right, do something right for once
So I say if I can do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial to let me give you will
Measure up to what might have replaced it
To rate look in my date book
It's packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And not that the regret will prove to get me to improve in the long run
Sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
Sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this, you promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right, do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless and I never knew I knew this
Is gonna the day. gonna be the day
That I will do something right, do something right for once.
I noticed I know this week is the symbol of how I use my time
Resented, I spend it convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me doing anything with any consequence
Without me showing anytime with ever making sense of my time
It's my life and my right to use it like I should
Like He would for the good of everything that I would ever know
I'm a little more than useless
When I think that I can't do this
You promise me that I'll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once
I'm a little more than useless
And never knew I knew this
Is gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I will do something right
Do something right for once | | |
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